One Year of Hydrotherapy

Thought I'd use another shot from the Wren sunbathing series. It really did look so warm and content. Bliss.

Been a week of ups and downs. I reached the significant milestone of completing one year of weekly hydrotherapy sessions. They have been the backbone of my recovery. Everything else has stemmed from the results of that. It's the pool work which got my muscles/nerves moving again without inducing crippling pain or injury. It's the pool work which has reconditioned those muscles/nerves to withstand multiple repetitions of use and increasing forces. It's the pool work which I look forward to each week as it gives both my mind and body a chance to relax and be soothed from the rigors of other conditioning work. I can't stress enough the benefits of water-based exercise!

I've not altered the routine since leaving the hospital pool at the end of May 2009 but what has changed is what I can manage during the rest of the week.

The downside of this week is that I have overdone it a little. I wore myself out completely on Wednesday and although I went to bed for an hour in the afternoon, I was wiped out on Thursday. That meant my resilience was extremely low and my therapy session on Thursday was a disaster really. I got badly triggered and I'm still trying to regain a sense of safety in the present. I've felt 'mentally ill' over the past few days and struggled to control flashbacks and destructive thinking patterns. I know it's mostly due to wearing myself out physically but at times like this it's hard not to feel scared of a relapse.

Anyways....keeping things steady and hopefully my mind will settle down again soon. Tired out!